When we say “mirror”, what’s the most popular line that comes to mind, will it be “Magic Mirror on the wall, who is the fairest of them all,” by the Evil Queen in Snow White and the Seven Dwarfs? Or in Philippine setting, is it Boy Abunda saying, “I’m bringing out my magic mirror”? How about if you are to face your own imaginary mirror, are you ready to face your true self? Am I?
Oftentimes, on Facebook, we see people (acquaintances, friends, family) who love to post famous quotes or derogatory lines that seemed to point fingers at another person or is meant to make another feel shameful or to prick someone’s conscience BUT failed to notice that these lines are more apt reminders to themselves. I am sure a name of a particular someone will suddenly pop into your mind.
We ask ourselves, how come they don’t seem to realize it?
That is, for the plain reason that no one can see the mud on one’s face unless one faces the mirror and be honest enough to admit the truth that is revealed there no matter how harsh is it.
Yes, I say, it is very difficult for anyone to face one’s self in that imaginary mirror and see what is revealed there. I’ll bet that not so many will even spare a moment to face that mirror.
Facing the mirror might reveal two things: things you are proud of yourself and things that you will never even admit to yourself to be capable of thinking or doing, things you are ashamed of. Thus, facing the mirror is tantamount to facing the demons haunting your mind, or looking at the ghost of a forgotten past, or the gaping mouth of a lion making you tremble in trepidation, fear and shame. It is, in other words, admitting to your weaknesses and mistakes to that one person who is most important to you, YOURSELF.
For even to myself I have to admit that facing that mirror might ask more than I am ready to give and might reveal more than I care to accept.
But today, I want to gather up the courage to face that mirror and look into what it will reveal.
It revealed that in my life, there are things that made me wish I can turn back the clock of times so I can change them, or that I can even change myself for the better.
It also revealed that there are things I am capable of doing for the sake of love, for the sake of my family, for survival, for the right to exist in this world.
But most of all, it revealed I am what I am today because of those events that happened in my past. I can say that I became a much stronger, braver, and wiser person than I was before.
I may have grown in a family that may not be all that different among the usual sob stories you see in television, but let it suffice to say that at a young age, I gained a deeper understanding of life.
I realized that in order to change what people can remember of me and my family, I had to change the direction of their thoughts not on the sad facts of my life but on my triumphant journey towards achieving the goals I have set my eyes upon. I wanted them to always remember, instead, where I am now.
I am neither filthy rich, nor am I with a distinguished position in society but I feel what I have now–a stable job, a supportive mother, a loving husband and three lovely daughters, an undying dream–are enough to make me feel I am on the top of the world.
There are maybe things that I have done that I may regret for my whole life but then there is no point on lingering on such regrettable past for what is left to be done is to move forward and to try doing what is right so I won’t commit the same mistakes again. I will maybe forever whip myself in my mind but I will not allow myself to forever cower in fear and shame, for in this world, I may not be perfect but I am the best in giving my all for my family.
So, how about you? Are you ready in…