Fighting Fate

Annyeong! (Hi!)

Are you ready for another walk down the Korean drama lane?

The quote above from Publilius Syrus is just one of the many quotes featured in the ongoing Korean t.v. series entitled Criminal Minds starring Lee Joon-gi (https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Lee_Joon-gi).

By the way, Publilius Syrus was a Latin writer famous for writing sententiae which are brief moral sayings such as proverbs, adages, maxims often quoted without context.

Anyway, as expected I am pulled again into the vortex of my mind and sent various thoughts spiralling into it as I tried to decipher the meaning behind this line.

Lately, the events happening in my life make me feel like I am riding the craziest ride of my life. The ups and downs I had taken made me dizzy and felt suspended in bated breath all throughout the ride. I feel I haven’t reached the end of it, my heart still on my mouth, choking me with apprehension. 

Seeing the quote made me agree with Publilius Syrus. Fate indeed is not satisfied with one calamity. I just hope and pray that when it released its hold on me, I can still stand on my feet again. I am beginning to weaken under its relentless onslaught but my faith won’t allow me to get carried away and wallow in depression. I am maybe weary and wary, my heart often beats like a deafening roll of drums in my ears, but I can’t afford to acknowledge my weakness for the sake of the people dependent upon me. 

I may cry out my frustrations and fears and doubts in the best possible way I know but I can never let them seep into my every being. I have to fight over and above these calamities fate brought upon me. I have to win this fight!

Laughter (Poetry)

Why do you evade me lately,

A glimpse of it is quite costly?

Even a shadow of a smile

Is nary from here to a mile.

Why is it so hard to keep you,

Though I yearn it, I feel so blue?

Every time I feel I had it

It will disappear like a mist.

Will there come a good time again

For reason to let it happen?

When can I have a real good laugh

‘Stead of worrying about stuff?

Oh, God, take me out of this gloom

Let laughter in my life blossom

Like a flower that sadly died

From its forlorn state be revived.

 

Man of my Dreams

You are the reason why I smile,

You are the cause why life is worthwhile,

Life is hard but I’m still happy

For you who truly completes me.

Before I met you, I asked God

For a special man who can love

This girl whose life story is sad

Angels cry from Heaven above.

God heard, my prayers He granted

One whose personality seems

All that I can ever wanted

He gave me YOU, man of my dreams!

Into Finding That Niche

While I was reading some posts from bloggers who recently liked my own posts or followed me, I came upon this post (please refer to this link:  https://gjseth.org/2017/04/20/what-to-write/) and I thought, he summed it all up what I am thinking right now.  Bravo, GJ Seth, you nailed it!

Well, you could say that from the start, I really don’t have a specific category in mind for my blog.  My blog was somewhat just an expression of my current state of mind or my present interests and I know that not so many are really interested with what is going on with someone else’s life unless they are very extraordinary, and not so many have the same interests in what interests me.

After four months of regular blogging every Wednesdays and Sundays (that is, if nothing odd is happening with me), I began to analyze my own blog.  Comparing it with the works of fellow bloggers I follow, I admit that the likes I was receiving were few. 

I then ask myself, what is my honest reaction to this?  
First of all, I am sad and disappointed.   Sad, because I felt I somewhat failed the people who gave me their vote of confidence by following me.  Disappointed, because I must have expected a bit too much for my own good.

Secondly, I feel uncertain, undecided.  What will I do next from this day onwards?  Is the blog still worth keeping?

Then, when everything was getting a bit emotional which seemed to be happening a little too often lately, I looked at my notifications and read through them again.  Then realization struck me like lightning in a very clear sky.

The fact that there are people who like my posts, old followers and new ones, even if it is only one or two, it does indicate that I haven’t totally failed in affecting people.  Though the main objective of the blog was to touch as many people as possible, being able to express myself explicitly in the first place, has already made the reason of creating this blog a success.

Wasn’t the reason of all these was “finding a niche of my own in the vast world of literature”?  So far, I can very well say that no matter how small that mark I have made, I believe that I did find that niche I was looking for.  It might be considered as just a little crack compared to others but creating rapport with the few wonderful bloggers I’ve met here so far, suffice for any disappointment I may have felt.  

So, as an advice to my own self, give yourself a chance to learn from past experiences of blogging.  Try to be more observant of what really is going on around you.  Feel what perks people up and gather inspiration from them.  Explore the vastness of this world with a keener mind and to not dwell too much in your own small world.

Hmm, good advice, don’t you think?  Let’s see if I can make good at it.