I Can Hear… (Poetry)

I can hear the whisper of the wind as it whipped by me

It felt like an angel’s kiss, wishing me good luck today

I can hear it whistle as it passed by a sturdy tree

Reminding me to be as strong as I faced each new day.

I can hear the birds singing  as it hopped from tree to tree

They sing songs of lullabies and of endless love so true

They sing songs of hope for a desolate person like me

These songs somewhat took me out of the depths of feeling blue.

I can finally hear the peaceful beating of my heart

Til when will I enjoy this calmness is yet to be seen

I pray that something good in my life will finally start

That will take away or, at least, ease my loads of burden.

What To Do When Life  Is Getting Too Difficult

A happy Monday, everyone! 

Since I am running a bit late with my posting again let me just share with you some personal tips that maybe are not new to you anymore or things you already practice yourselves.

At present times, when almost anywhere, economic depression is occurring, not everyone has jobs that can provide their everything, not everyone is experiencing financial freedom, everyone is stressed by one thinf or another. In other words when the going is just too tough, and running out of it is not an option, what do we do?  

Physically running out pf situations may not be possible, but mentally and emotionally separating one’s self from harsh reality for a little bit, to rid of too much pressure, to avoid going into depression is entirely possible.

I am not into astral projection, although if others have ways to do that, maybe you can share me the trick?  Anyway, when I say emotional and mental separation, it is a state where one tries to project your senses away from the things or thoughts that bother you too much they give you nightmares even though you are wide awake . (Did you experience shuddering while thinking what happens if your worst fears come to life?)

So, here are some of the best ways I have discovered so far (mind you, the tips are just some ways for you ro cope with the stress building up, it does not make the problems go away, but maybe will give you a breather and a chance to think with a much clearer mind):

1. Indulge in creative activities

  •      Find out where your creative talent lies. It could be in writing (that is why I have created this blog). It could be in dancing (create your own dance moves that can shake this world up down to their toes). It can be in creating videos (may it be funny, full of drama, or a song). 
  • Get some sewing done and create your own DIY projects (I made a wallet for myself. Sewed it for two weeks)

2.  Movie/drama binge-watching

      I can watch an entire 20-episode of Korean Drama in one day. The life stories unfolding on a screen can make me forget my own life stories and even at times garner new ideas or philosophies from them.

3.  Reading books/ stories

      I thank Wattpad and WordPress for this. These two sites are my gateways to a world different from mine.

4. Appreciate nature

     Take a walk. Observe your surroundings. Appreciate the weather, the wind, the trees, the birds, any little things that you never take notice of before.

5. Get into contemplative exercise

     Yoga is one such exercise. One of such like exercise I had once taught us about self-communion. In a retreat, we once taught how to commune with the Holy Spirit. We were told to go to a place by ourselves and try to relax pur mind, closing off any distracting sound or movement and ask for the Holy Spirit to come. I tell you, it’s quite effective.

     Another experience was back in Grade Four where a teacher taught us how to relieve stress by concentrating and imagining oneself in a serene place surrounded by nature.

I hope these tips help you fight your own way through the maze of your own life. Feel free to find other ways to do so as long as it keeps from doing any dangerous stuffs.  

Have a great week, everyone!!!



Day of Protest (Poetry)

Today marks a historical day

That we’ll never forget any way

Because it has become part of past

From which learning lessons is a must.

Today, in commemoration

Of history of our nation,

A Day of Protest was declared

That all grievances may be aired.

If only my own cries can be heard 

If making protests won’t be so weird

Is there really someone who cares

For the people who live like paupers?

With Satan’s Curse?

Could an inanimate object really be a medium to bring a curse? Or was it a mere manifestation of an artist’s ingenious creativity?

Last Thursday, I was greatly perturbed when an office mate called to my attention a controversial video from a popular show in Philippines, the Kapuso Mo, Jessica Soho, aired last September 10, 2017 on GMA Public Affairs.  I was just at first listening to the interview of the man who claimed that the religious item he had, possessed such grave impact upon his family enough for him to think it had the devil’s curse. I was even more alarmed when an exorcist priest, Diocese of Novaliches Chief Exorcist Father Rev. Ambrosio Nonato Legaspi, confirms of the existence of such thing and that there is a possibility of truth in such claim (http://cbcpnews.net/cbcpnews/faithful-warned-about-satanic-rosaries/ or check http://www.veritas846.ph/exorcist-reinstates-caution-satanic-rosaries/).

Getting curious by the minute I stood up and looked at the item in question. It looked oddly familiar to me, so I went back to my table and rummaged inside my bag to confirm what I just saw.

I didn’t know how I would feel as I looked more closely at the thing I took from my bag.  It was a gift I, as well as some of our batchmates, received from a former classmate when we met last April 2015 for the Annual Alumni held every summer at our Alma Mater. According to her, she bought it in one of her visits to Rome and had them blessed there.

As a fervent believer of the mysteries of the holy prayer known to most Catholics, I was really glad to had received such a one coming from the most holy place all Catholics thought to be which I could only dream of to go to in my whole life but doubt if I really could.

Then, looking at the religious item, I told my office mate, I have one in my possession which, of course, brought most of them to stand up on their feet and looked at the controversial item up close. It was the exact replica of the item on the video, a video of the interview on a man who claimed that what he had and what I have in possession is a so-called Satanic Rosary.

I told them I had it already for the last two years. The office mate who brought the video as a topic, asked me then if was it at the time when I got sick. It made me think and replied, “I had it when my second daughter got sick of dengue and had to be placed in the ICU due to grave danger in her life.”

One of my office mates who also happened to be a batchmate and who received the same thing from our former classmate, stood up and said she had the same item but didn’t believe the item is cursed as it was blessed from Rome, of all places, after all.

I asked the first office mate what was the exorcist priest’s advise as to what to do with the rosary. He answered that it should be surrendered to the church. Throwing it away is an act of sacrilege for Catholics. With that thought, I decided to approach our own clergy during the Saturday mass in the village chapel. 

The next day, another office mate, reading the many comments on a post on Facebook on the same topic, came upon a declaration of a member of a Satanic group (times are indeed different nowadays for people are more outgoing and brave to claim their uncanny beliefs to the whole world without shame or fear of censure). 

Anyway, the person claims that the controversial rosary is in no way be the right image of the satanic rosary since the symbols their members were using are the hexagram or “The Eye”. Well, thinking over that, his claim is somewhat more plausible to me than believing that the Satanic group would use Jesus Christ’s image as their symbol. Being a fan of many fiction books about witchcraft and immortal beings (i.e. Vampires, wolves, elves, etc.), hexagrams were often mentioned as a magical symbol for witchcraft and “The Eye” as a cult symbol.

But being as vulnerable as I am with how much difficulties I had to face and battle recently, I began to ponder heavily on the issue. So, when Saturday came and the time for the mass to begin, I dressed up and carried with me the rosary to the chapel. The mass went on without a hitch, with the gospel about forgiveness and how God is a forgiving master to advice Peter to forgive his brother not just seven times, but seven times seven more.

After the mass, before the Novena for the Divine Mercy would begin, I approached the officiating priest and asked him if I could ask his opinion on something. 

So walking a bit away from the other church-goers, I asked him if he heard about the issue regarding the Satanic Rosary and what does the church had to say about it.

He told me that as of present, the church had not made a definite stand or opinion regarding the matter. What the church says, according to him, that if in doubt, the item should not be used but definitely not thrown away. Better place it on the altar (to be near more sacred items to ward off any, if there is, of its demonic powers, I surmised).

The good priest, one way or the other, had the same thinking as I had that the creator of such instrument may had been merely expressing his ingenious creativity, depicting imagery that were misconstrued. The four suns on each corner of the cross could have been his way of telling the power of brightness that dispel sin from Jesus sacrifice of dying in the cross instead of being the symbols “of the Satanists…particularly by the group called Illuminati”, as stated by Rev. Legaspi on the CBCP news. The line spiralling down Jesus’ head could have been a decorative vine instead of a snake. Or if even it was a snake, it could be depicting or a portrayal of man’s grievous sins that Jesus Christ had to die for in the cross to save us from eternal death.

I may just have a positive or even poetic outlook towards the imagery portrayed on the religious item, but what was uppermost in my mind was that, it’s just too much of a convenience to blame an inanimate object, albeit something that was almost considered a lifeline by most elders in the Catholic faith, for all the negativity that occurs in our daily lives. After all, as the good priest I talked to himself said, the rosary is just a tool, an instrument we use to say the prayers. It is our heart that is actually communing with God. The issue could have just been to “detract believers from the Catholic faith”, to quote him.  

I am not, of course, undermining, the warnings made by Rev. Legaspi. He was after all been through several occurrences, personally witnessing and fighting against such demonic activities. He, among others, is more well-versed with such things and manifestations being an exorcist priest.

In fact, upon checking other articles on the net regarding the issue, and reading the two uppermost articles regarding it as per the two links I shared with you earlier. (http://www.veritas846.ph/exorcist-reinstates-caution-satanic-rosaries/ and http://cbcpnews.net/cbcpnews/faithful-warned-about-satanic-rosaries/), I was once again alarmed by the fact that the workings of the devil and his believers could be that intricate to worm their way through the peaceful lives of firm believers of Christianity, so much so that they would perform satanic rituals to spread chaos and create a medium for their intention to do so.  As of date, however, the Vatican is silent regarding the issue. CBCP News on its update last September 5, 2017, issued the following: 

Update as of September 5, 2017 

In social media comments, the story about satanic rosaries has been mistakenly attributed to the CBCP.  The CBCP Media Office has clarified that Fr. Ambrosio Nonato Legaspi was speaking as head of the diocese of Novaliches office of exorcism (Libera Nox) and not for the Catholic Bishops’ Conference of the Philippines.”

We had to admit that for some other religious beliefs, sects or religions, the Catholics’ fervent belief on rosaries, statues, and images were actually of paganism attribute and would more likely readily agree that our entire belief on such religious items are sacrilegious, whether it is just the normal ordinary rosary or the so-called Satanic Rosary.

So, do I believe that the rosary I have had any demonic powers to bring down a curse upon me and my whole family?

Despite all the woeful events that occurred in my life, I don’t actually believe that the rosary had anything to do with it. (Am I just trying to make myself believe that?) 

The trials and difficulties we had, if I really had to be honest with myself, are results of decisions and actions I and my family had made or situations that not just my family are in. Meaning, there were types of situations that could have been avoided if we had been more careful in our decisions and undertakings. There were situations that were brought about by our surroundings or by carelessness. There were also those brought upon by circumstances that almost everyone in the workplace are suffering from, even those who don’t have the same rosary on them, or those not even within my vicinity to even consider blaming myself to have brought the blight with me.

What we should always remember, Catholics or not, our faith in One True God is not anchored on an inanimate object such as a rosary. Communicating with God is through our prayers, whether it be through repititive mumblings of Our Father and Hail Mary for us, Catholics, or random words from the bottoms of our hearts as most Christians do.

Trials and hardships in life does not spare anyone. Even Job, God’s faithful servant, had to experience the test of faith (https://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Job+1&version=GNT&interface=amp). What we just need is the unwavering faith that God will not allow us to suffer what we cannot bear. All He is waiting for is for us to surrender everything into His capable hands. It is not wrong to acknowledge our weaknesses and instead be prepared to revel in the Power of God to make everything right. Believe when He said:

Not Alone After All (Poetry)

Is it merely coincidence or is it my fate

That I have been struggling very hard as of late?

But I do not think I am suffering alone

From such a harsh life that I seemed to have been born.

All around me, people sigh and can’t help but groan
At how diff’cult life was for everyone, they moan

Listening to them complain and talk about it

Somewhat pacifies me and comforts me a bit

For then I felt God has not forsaken me yet

And the thought bolstered my once discouraged spirit.

Fighting Fate

Annyeong! (Hi!)

Are you ready for another walk down the Korean drama lane?

The quote above from Publilius Syrus is just one of the many quotes featured in the ongoing Korean t.v. series entitled Criminal Minds starring Lee Joon-gi (https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Lee_Joon-gi).

By the way, Publilius Syrus was a Latin writer famous for writing sententiae which are brief moral sayings such as proverbs, adages, maxims often quoted without context.

Anyway, as expected I am pulled again into the vortex of my mind and sent various thoughts spiralling into it as I tried to decipher the meaning behind this line.

Lately, the events happening in my life make me feel like I am riding the craziest ride of my life. The ups and downs I had taken made me dizzy and felt suspended in bated breath all throughout the ride. I feel I haven’t reached the end of it, my heart still on my mouth, choking me with apprehension. 

Seeing the quote made me agree with Publilius Syrus. Fate indeed is not satisfied with one calamity. I just hope and pray that when it released its hold on me, I can still stand on my feet again. I am beginning to weaken under its relentless onslaught but my faith won’t allow me to get carried away and wallow in depression. I am maybe weary and wary, my heart often beats like a deafening roll of drums in my ears, but I can’t afford to acknowledge my weakness for the sake of the people dependent upon me. 

I may cry out my frustrations and fears and doubts in the best possible way I know but I can never let them seep into my every being. I have to fight over and above these calamities fate brought upon me. I have to win this fight!

Faith Changes Everything

Annyeonghaseyo! (Hello!)

It’s another serious talking today, guys and so as not to disappoint you, I have another quote from a Korean drama to share with you. 

The photo above (yehey, I was finally able to upload photos!), show a quote from the Korean tv series entitled Falsify starring Nam Goong Min (http://wiki.d-addicts.com/Nam_Goong_Min) as Han Moo-Young, who became a media jackal to unveil the truth behind the death of his brother who was murdered through a seemingly vehicular accident by a man with a tattoo for trying to correct falsified stories he published instigated by the director of the newspaper company he worked for and revealing social corruption involving the biggest newspaper company, the chief prosecutor and a secret organization.

The quote Han Moo-Young said to one of the victims of false accusation in the drama was this:  

“You may feel like you’re in the desert without a compass, but nothing will change if you keep on dwelling on your emotions.”

There are times in our lives that we feel how unfair fate it seems, that we feel like we were left in the middle of the desert without a compass, uncertain of which direction to take.  It is somewhat akin to a fish taken out of water and left to gasp for air and plop itself helplessly, seeking a way to breathe and survive.

No matter how much we wail and “plop” and let ourselves be enslaved by our dire situation, nothing will indeed change if we kept on dwelling on it.  

And although according to Friedrich Nietzsche: “Hope, in reality, is the worst of all evils because it prolongs the torments of man,” I’d rather continue to hope while positively thinking that all will come to pass.

My Dear Friends, what we all must bear in mind, when the road ahead becomes so difficult you can’t see a thing beyond a foot, when it seems all that surrounds you is a boundless desert, when life is seemed hopeless, is to never, ever lose faith.